93rd Street, You & Me
Soundscape & Performance
2022

This album tells the story of grieving over my alcoholic father, who is still alive. I have been grieving over what our relationship could have been since I was 5 years old. Whenever he drinks and gets hurt, I hurt also. When I watch him from the sidelines slowly killing himself with alcohol, my heart breaks further. When he cries, I cry. I’ve seen him on the brink of death far too many times, and I just want him to get better. And become my dad again. His story rings in my ears whenever I see alcoholism, especially on my college campus. Alcohol is a fun substance in a lot of people’s lives, which is a privilege in my mind. I hope to be able to drink occasionally in peace one day. Growing up with an alcoholic father has been isolating, as no one in my community talks about this illness. It’s complicated to love and hate my father at the same time. This is for those who undergo generational trauma and don’t know what to make of it.

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